Going Home

Going Home.

When I was younger, I had an almost paralyzing fear of death. My fear came from being so young and not having fully lived my life yet. It also came from not having experienced love in all of its different facets. This fear came from feeling as though I had to face the great unknown, alone, at least I thought I was alone. Because I was so young, I hadn’t realized that I was never really alone.

During my NDEs, I was not afraid of dying because everything had happened so fast that I didn’t have time to be afraid. Death came flawlessly as I moved laterally, seamlessly into the Heavens. I found, through my own experiences, that Heaven wasn’t a place up in the sky nor was Hell down below the earth. For me, when death came, it was nothing more than walking through a doorway into another room in my home. I found that Heaven, was no farther away than my own backyard. As I stood in the presence of God, I learned that God is good and He keeps His word. He said He would never leave me or forsake me and just as He had promised, God has never left my side. Not for one single second of my entire life. He is gracious and His love is abundant beyond words.

I was only 13 years old when I had my first near death experience. At that time, I had not fully lived my life. I still had many more years ahead of me. I wasn’t ready and neither was God. God still had big plans for my life. So, He sent me back, even though once I saw what was on the other side, I really wanted to stay. At the age of 43, death came again, along with a second NDE. Thirteen years later, death paid another visit bringing a third NDE. And finally, another year passed with yet another visit from death, followed with a fourth Near Death Experience. With each NDE, God had brought me closer to Himself and He had proven time and time again that there was no need to fear death. There was no pain, no suffering, no judgment. There was love. It was the kind of love that there are no words to adequately describe. There was joy, beauty, music, family, friends, beloved animals, and all of the things that makes one think of home.

Once I knew that there was something far greater than my life here on earth, I was not afraid of death anymore. I had been blessed with a glimpse of what lies beyond with all of its beauty and splendor. But for others, who have not experienced a near death experience ,there is a fear about facing what is unknown. There is a voice inside of each us that says, “ I don’t know what there is that waits for me on the other side. How do I know that there is anything at all? I don’t want to die yet, I’m not finished with my life. I haven’t loved enough yet, which is, of course, the purpose of our life.

When it is our time to go ” home” and we have fully experienced this life with all of its love, its gifts and its wonder then, we will be able to say “I’m not afraid to let go and move on because I have lived life and have loved to the best of my ability.”
Through my experiences, I have learned that there really is no death, for it is only the physical body that dies, the human soul/spirit lives on eternally.

Every human being is a soul that has a spirit. The spirit is the part of us that makes us who we are. The spirit gives each soul its own identity, it’s own uniqueness, it’s own essence. That is the part of us that will never die but upon physical death takes on another form and will live forever in union and in love with God.

Death is the last doorway that takes us to our eternal life and to the glorious gifts that await us for our return home.

Sharon Milliman (c) 2018

Let There Be Love

As people gathered around me for support, I was given my life review. I was shown my life; everything I had ever said and done was shown to me. It was like watching a black and white movie on a reel. There was no feeling, no judgment at all. It was right then that I learned that God does not judge us, we judge ourselves, standing there before Him in all of His glory and perfection while we watch our lives pass in front of us.

For me, all He did was love me through it. Not a word was said, and it was over in a blink of an eye.
And as I remember my time in Heaven, I replay that moment over and over. I am constantly aware now that what we say and do affects not only others but ourselves as well. In other words, what we do to others, we do to ourselves. It was after my life review that I heard a male voice say, “What you put out into the universe will come back to you”. Whatever you do in your life, do it with love. Let love be what comes back to you. Let love be what you see and feel during your life review

The Soul and The Spirit

People have asked me many times about the different terms “soul” and “spirit”this is what I learned from my experiences.
People are triune creations.
Every person that has ever existed or will exist is a soul, with a spirit and a body.
You are a “Soul” who has a body empowered by your spirit. The soul is the conscious part of who we are. It is the part of us that “experiences” what goes on around us and it grows through these experiences. The soul is what makes you who you are. It is the eternal part of us.
The soul is the seat of the senses, desires, affections, and appetites. the soul is the immaterial part of a human being that lives on beyond this earthly life.
It is what forms our likes, our dislikes, our thoughts, our feelings and it is greatly affected by the choices we make.
Now, at the moment of conception, God breathes His breath of life into the sperm and the egg and at that point the spirit enters. Your spirit is what brings life to the cells which forms your body. Your spirit is what animates your body. It is the electricity that powers us. Without the spirit, there is no life. Remember, we are souls which is the eternal conscience part of us, we have a spirit which is the animator of our bodies and we are body. The body houses the soul and spirit and is the vehicle that gives us mobility.
Your body is nothing more than a vehicle that gets YOU, your soul and your spirit, around in this physical world. It’s like a car , a vehicle that gets your body from one place to another. Your human body is not you, it’s only the vehicle that houses your soul and spirit while you experience this earthly life. It’s your soul that makes you the beautiful and unique person that you are. When your body dies as every one’s body will die, YOU, live on. your soul will never die.

When I died from a lightning strike, I learned,and it was a very stark reality, that you cannot take anything with you. When you are born into this world, you have nothing, when your body dies and your soul and spirit leave your earthly vessel, you again, have nothing. No earthly possessions go with you. However, your soul and spirit remain whole and intact. What you do take with you,are all of the things that make you who you are. You take with you your thoughts, your memories, your feelings, your likes, your dislikes and all of the other things that make you who you are. When my soul and spirit left my body and I went to Heaven,everything that made me who I am was still there. Once my brothers told that I had died, I purposely looked down the front of me to see if I still had a body. To my surprise, I did still have a body. It was a spiritual body. I call it a light body because there was no heaviness or gravity weighing me down. I still looked like me,
only a better version of me. I still felt like me, thought like me, I was still me. When your body dies, You do not loose your unique identity. You are still you.
You will always be you. Physical death does not remove your unique and beautiful identity it only enhances it.

Words

To all of my family and to my friends who love and support me , I am truly honored and blessed by the beautiful gift of YOU. Thank you for being in my life. I love you all and I am grateful beyond words for YOU. This writing is not directed towards any of you at all but is directed towards others ( they know who they are) and after days of prayer and contemplation, I feel I am being led to speak out about what is in my heart.

Once again, I find it very disheartening to be at the receiving end of some people’s negative,angry, self righteous words being wielded at me like a razor sharp sword. When I read some of the comments that are posted on some of the YouTube videos made from some of the interviews I have done, where I have shared about my experiences, I am completely astounded. I have no words to accurately describe the pain I feel by the accusations and presumptions coming from people who do not even know me. I am appalled by the venom I see coming from number one, adults and number two,people who claim to be followers of Christ and yet, they prove by their actions and words that they are anything but what they claim to be.

These kinds of comments are not just on my videos but I see similar comments on other’s videos as well.

I can’t speak for anyone else, but I can speak for myself. What I will say is that every word I have spoken is the truth. I am not a fraud, I am not a liar. I am not demon possessed. I am not a heretic. I am not a blasphemer. I am not a theologian, my books are not theological documents, they are books about what God did in MY life. They may be my experiences but it’s God’s story. It’s all for His Glory! I do not, and have never claimed to know the mind of God. I have never claimed to be an authority on God. The only authority on God, is God. All I know is what He chose to show me and tell me during my Near Death experiences and what I have been willing to learn from those experiences. I have a willingness and an openness to do God’s will by sharing my experiences in order to give hope to those in need. I do this out of love, not out of any kind of authority.
When giving an interview, or giving a talk on my experiences, I tell exactly what God did in MY life. God is God. He is capable of doing anything He chooses. If He can work miracles in my life, He is quite capable of doing the same in other’s lives as well. He comes to us all in very unique and individual ways because we are all very unique and individual people, with very unique and individual hearts. God is the reader of hearts and the healer of hearts. That is what He does best. The way He presents Himself and the way He speaks to me is going to be very different than the way He may present Himself or the way He speaks to someone else. But,both are very real and valid.

As for the comments about my tears, Yes! I do cry sometimes during certain interviews because there are times when I cannot contain the absolute love of God, the overwhelming sense of joy and the awe that I feel because of the profound miracles that I have experienced in my life. Tears are not a bad thing. Tears are words the soul cannot speak.

As for the comments made about my NDEs and the Bible, no , you probably will not find a way to back up all of the experiences I have had by looking for them in the Bible, but that does not mean that I was “speaking with demons “ or that as some have said , “ I need to be delivered.” Yes, God speaks to us through the words in the Bible, but that is not the only way He can speak to us. However,there are many places in the Bible that talk about people having angelic visitations, people having dreams , visions , seeing spirits etc. But, one needs to truly understand in what context the words were written and how can they be applied to our lives today. The Bible should never be used as a destructive weapon against another person.
If one chooses to put God in a box, then so be it, have at it. I however, through my experiences, have learned that God cannot, nor will He ever be contained inside a tiny little box. God is so big He can cover the whole world with His love and at the same time He can be so small that He can curl up inside your heart. If one lets Him, He will do just that.

I will also say that unless one has walked a mile in my shoes, unless one has seen the world and the Glory of God through my eyes, unless one has crawled into the deepest chambers of my heart, it is impossible for anyone to pass any kind of accurate judgment upon me.

There were remarks made about the tears that came when I spoke about my own mother. Yes, my mother passed away five years ago. I know she is in Heaven, she is not suffering anymore. When we love deeply, we also mourn deeply. I still love her and I miss her in my life. Even Jesus Himself mourned the death of His friend Lazarus, He wept and mourned over Jerusalem. Mourning is a human, very normal and natural thing to experience when someone you love passes. Even as a multiple NDER, I am still human. I know where my loved ones are and have had a beautiful glimpse of what they are experiencing and yet, I am here and they are there. I am allowed to feel. I am allowed to mourn for as long as I need to without judgment from others.

As NDERS we are not all knowing gurus, we are not exempt from the trials and suffering of this world. We still face hardships, loss,physical illness and we hurt when others are cruel. But, It’s what we do with it all that matters in the end. I said “ yes” to God , that is why I share what I do. I was also taught as a child, if you can’t say something kind, don’t say anything at all. Words have the power to make a soul or break one. So I ask these people, and they know who they are, before you speak or leave mean, hurtful, judgmental comments on me or anyone else, ask yourself “what would Jesus, or God, do?”

Facing The Storms

Facing The Storms

Lately, We have been facing many storms in our lives. These are storms like we have never experienced before. When these storms come, blinding fear grips us and we spiral down to a place where we feel paralyzed. As fear takes over, the waves of uncertainty pull us under and we cannot breathe. It feels as though we are literally drowning in a cold, dark sea of the unknown.

It’s during these times, that if we focus on God and not on the storms that are raging all around us, we will find the inner strength and peace that we need to get through the storm.

I know from my own experiences, that keeping my focus on God and not on the waves that are about to engulf me, can sometimes be very difficult to do. It’s hard especially when we are facing serious financial hardships, homelessness, hunger, the sudden serious illness of someone we love or when we are faced with waves of sorrow and loneliness over the loss of loved ones. But, through my experiences,I have learned that no matter how hard it may be, if I don’t focus on God, the waves will crash down on me and crush me beneath them.

God never promised that life would be easy. He never said that there wouldn’t be hardships and sorrow in our lives. But He DID promise that He would be with us through the good times as well as the not so good times. He promised that He would shelter us during the storms.

If we trust and believe that God is a man of His word, then we know that the storms we face will not last forever. God is at the beginning, in the middle and at the end of all that we face in this life. If we but ask, He will calm the stormy seas, take command of our fear, He will comfort and soothe our broken hearts and He will provide for our every need.

Everyone who know me, knows I love birds. I can sit for hours just watching their cute little antics and listening to their glorious songs. I know that God gives every bird it’s food, but He doesn’t throw it into the nest. The food is all there, it’s plentiful but the birds must go out and find it. He covers them with colorful feathers that not only adorn them with beauty but also keeps them warm in the winter and dry during the spring and summer rains.

God loves and cares for all of His creation, even the smallest of His creation. If God loves and cares for even the smallest of His creation, how much more will He care for you.

The storms that we are all facing, in one way or another, will pass , like the tides that ebb and flow. Our purpose in life is to learn how to love and be loved. The situations in our lives and the storms that we face do not have to define who we are.

Change is inevitable, life as we have known it, has changed. It will never be like it was before.

The question is, have we learned from the past? If so, then we are not destined to repeat it. We have the choice. It’s not too late. We are not victims of fates that lie ahead.

We decide and we create. It’s up to us. We can stop the storms.

Do we put God back into the center of our lives, do we love others, the way we want to be loved? Do we treat the Earth with respect, taking only what we need to survive and leaving the rest? Do we respect ALL of life? Do we cherishing all of God’s creation by seeing the gifts hidden within? Do we really have to face another storm in order for mankind to change?

God’s love is constant and so is change. It’s time to lay the past to rest, learn from our mistakes, come together celebrating our commonalities and learning from each other, our differences.

We have a choice, one loving choice can change the entire world.

Free Will

Since my near death experiences, I have been asked the question ” What is Free Will? ” this is what was revealed

With every soul that comes into being, God breathes His breath of life and bestows an eternal gift. This gift is freely given out of His great love. Every soul is given this precious gift and there are no strings attached.

Free will is a gift that gives us the power to make decisions on our own rather than having God or fate predetermine what we do. But with this gift comes great responsibility, for with each decision or choice that we make in our lives there will also be consequences.

God in His infinite love, created us in His image and we resemble our Creator in our capacity to display such qualities as love, acceptance tolerance, compassion, graciousness, and justice but it is our choice to do so. God is a gentleman, He gave us this gift upon our birth and He honors us by stepping back and allowing us to freely make our choices. Even though He steps back, allowing us to make our own decisions, His love for us is constant and He is ever present watching over us as a loving father watches over his child. We can align ourselves with God’s love or to feel separate from it. This is our choice. With each decision we make, we either walk with truth and with love, or we shy away from it. With each loving choice to honor our heart, and to believe in His love and support, we walk the path of miracles. With each choice to believe and to act in love, we are living our life’s purpose. Conversely, with each unloving thought, by misusing our gift; by imposing our will selfishly upon others thereby causing harm, we walk the path of struggle. The choice is ours and the results of such choices are the consequences we reap. Yes, free will can result in evil however, it can also result in the deepest love and joy possible.

We are truly blessed with the fact that God does not keep score and does not make judgments. In the end, we are the ones who do the judging.

This is the precious gift of free will that we have all been given upon our birth. The most beautiful part of this gift is that it lets us love Him with all of our hearts, simply because we want to.

Sharon Milliman (c) 2017