Joy Comes In The Little Things

Joy Comes In The Little Things

Since my near death experience I have learned that Joy comes in the little things. I have also learned that it is important to share joy and happiness with others. These gifts are not meant to be held onto selfishly. Before you can share them with others, you must find them within yourself first. In other words, you cannot share something that you do not feel. For me, joy comes in the little things. Joy comes in the quiet moments, such as soaking in the first rays of the dawn, hearing the sweet song of a bird or listening to the gurgling of a stream as it flows over the rocks. These are the things that I notice when I spend a few moments alone with God. Such moments bring peace and harmony to my soul.

When I experience joy, happiness follows and it radiates out of me, like the rays of the sun that shines on others. Spreading joy only requires truly caring about someone else. It is found in a smile, a kind word, a good deed, by showing love and compassion. That is all it takes. Where there is love, one will find joy.

I was sitting outside drinking my coffee and enjoying the early morning sun when I noticed all the beauty around me. I noticed the soft breeze against my skin, the happy singing of the birds and the sweet fragrance of the flowers. It was a time of peace and quiet, a time to sit in the presence of God before I had to start my busy day. Later that morning I had left to run some errands. One of the places on my list was the doctor’s office. While there waiting for some paperwork, I noticed a man standing in line waiting to sign in for his appointment. He had this look that I immediately recognized, although I wasn’t sure why I immediately perceived overwhelming pain in his eyes and brokenness of his spirit. I felt this push to talk to him and heard a voice whisper, “tell him.” So, I asked the man if he was a Vietnam Veteran. He said he was. I then asked him if he had a moment to speak about something important. He nodded and we stepped aside. I began to tell him that most of the military, fire and rescue servicemen today receive a hero’s welcome, especially after the world trade center attack of 9/11. I wanted him to understand he was every bit as much of a Hero to me. I thanked him for fighting and for making so many sacrifices in the service to his country. I told him that I understood his pain, including his confusion why certain things went so badly. I understood that he was just following orders by his commanding officer, he was responding as any scared young man might, confused as to why he was sent to war. I ended by reiterating “You are my hero, thank you so much for what you did for all of us.” At this point tears were streaming down both our faces. He hugged me and said, “Thank you.” He got back in line and I sat down.

When I was ready to leave a little while later, the man was also leaving his appointment. He walked up to me and said, “I wanted to thank you for all that you said to me. I had planned to end my life today, but you changed that for me. I am not going to do that now. I am going to stay now. So, thank you.” He had such a new sparkle in his eyes and a smile on his face that gave me such incredible joy. We hugged each other again. As I was heading toward my car, I heard him whistling a song. Thank God! Whenever I think of him, and I do from time to time, I offer up a prayer of thanksgiving for him and all who have served in conflicts, wars or disasters. They are my heroes, all of them. Whether they were recognized or not, I am recognizing them now and saying “thank you.” Joy does come in the little things and it comes in acts of love towards others. That stranger gave me the most beautiful gift. He gave me joy. For his joy became my joy.

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind, A Near Death Experience

Our Wounded Bodies and Hearts

Our Wounded Bodies and Hearts

Sometimes our wounds and brokenness are hidden, there is no outward appearance. The struggles and tragedies, pain and suffering are faced in silence.
I have had a TBI , traumatic brain injury, since 97 when I fell backwards off a ramp, my head bouncing off the concrete like a rubber ball. I began having grand mall seizures , memory loss, cognitive impairment and for an 8 month span of time the loss of movement in my legs. It has caused permanent severe post traumatic migraine syndrome. There are times when speaking, I loose my words, making it seem as though I am not as intelligent as one might expect. It took 8 years to recover from this accident. In 2005, I was struck by lightning leading to my second NDE. The doctors have said the TBI will be permanent but I have learned many helpful coping mechanisms over the years.
Not only have there been physical wounds but there have been wounds of the heart. There has been divorce, broken relationships, death, and various other kinds of woundedness. I have learned over the years that we are all wounded in one way or another. I have learned not to become a victim of my own wounds. I have learned that I have the strength within me to rise above the circumstances that life presents as tests. I have learned that I can move through my challenges and tragedies by reaching out and helping others move through the painful episodes of their lives. Doing this keeps me from getting stuck within myself. By remaining stuck in the power of my own pain and woundedness, I hinder my own growth. And I overlook the greater gifts inherent in my wounds -the strength to persevere, to overcome them and the lessons I was meant to receive through them. I have learned that my pain and suffering is a means to enter into the hearts of others. My wounds teach me how to be compassionate and wise and to treat others the way I want to be treated, with dignity and respect. And above all things, to love, the way God loves. For, His love heals all wounds.

Sharon Milliman (c) 2017

What Does Joy Look Like?

What does Joy look like?

Then you will look and be radiant; your heart will swell with joy, because the abundance of the seas will be diverted to you, and the riches of the nations will come to you. Isaiah 60:5 NIV

After my Near death experience I lived in a state of oneness with God and my life was filled with joy. I found joy in the littlest things. I loved watching the early morning sunrise , hearing the birds sing their songs of praise, walking in fields of wild flowers , sitting in the quiet and being with God.
As I progressed in my spiritual journey, God revealed that the purpose being sent back from Heaven was to love and serve others. He didn’t give me a step by step guide as to how I was to accomplish this ,so I followed the words of Jesus ” love one another as I have loved you”
I took to heart what God had said to me and I set out to do what He had asked. I quickly learned that my favorite thing to do was an act of kindness towards at least one person every day. That was where I found my greatest joy. Someone’s else’s joy became my joy. I found that real joy was in what I gave, not in what I received.

God is love. Everything that emanates from God is love. I have found that spreading His love is a very easy to do. Just a simple smile can make all the difference in someone’s life. I have found that a smile can travel all the way around the world and back again all in one day, changing lives, lifting hearts and bringing joy as it goes. The best part is it can start right now.
What does Joy look like to you?

Sharon Milliman (c) 2017

Free Will

Free Will

Since my near death experiences, I have been asked the question ” What is Free Will? ” this is what was revealed,

With every soul that comes into being, God breathes His breath of life and bestows an eternal gift. This gift is freely given out of His great love. Every soul is given this precious gift and there are no strings attached.

Free will is a gift that gives us the power to make decisions of our own rather than having God or fate predetermine what we do. But with this gift comes great responsibility, for with each decision or choice that we make in our lives there will also be consequences.

God in His infinite love created us in His image and we resemble our Creator in our capacity to display such qualities as love, acceptance tolerance, compassion, graciousness, and justice but it is our choice to do so. God is a gentleman, He gave us this gift upon our birth and He honors us by stepping back and allowing us to freely make our choices. Even though He steps back, allowing us to make our own decisions, His love for us is constant and He is ever present watching over us as a loving father watches over his child. We can align ourselves with God’s love or to feel separate from it. This is our choice. With each decision we make, we either walk with truth and with love, or we shy away from it. With each loving choice to honor our heart, and to believe in His love and support, we walk the path of miracles. With each choice to believe and to act in love, we are living our life’s purpose. Conversely, with each unloving thought, by misusing our gift; by imposing our will selfishly upon others thereby causing harm, we walk the path of struggle. The choice is ours and the results of such choices are the consequences we reap. Yes, free will can result in evil however, it can also result in the deepest love and joy possible.

We are truly blessed with the fact that God does not keep score and does not make judgments. In the end, we are the ones who do the judging.
This is the precious gift of free will that we have all been given upon our birth. The most beautiful part of this gift is that it lets us love Him with all of our hearts, simply because we want to.

Sharon Milliman (c) 2017

Dark Nights

Eleven years have passed since my near death experience. There have been so many ups and downs, so many mountain moments and deserts. There have been many times when God stood right in front of me and I could see Him so clearly and other times when He was so far away that I felt like a hollow bone and my longing for Him was so deep. I would search and search but could not find Him no matter where I looked. But again, I said “yes” and I kept searching. During this period of searching for God, He was constantly reminding me of His love. He also reminded me of the conversation we had had while I was in Heaven so many years ago. Part of the conversation was as follows, “God, You made these people, You are in these people, so when I see these people, I see You.” God smiled and said “ yes that’s right. ” God was teaching me that He was not only in me but He was also in others. Because I had said “yes,” God was teaching me to seek Him in the face and hearts of others and by doing acts of love for others, I am also serving God.

It is easy to say “yes” when you are on the mountain top. It is during these times I can feel God’s presence and His love and it leaves me with a feeling of bliss and spiritual delight.

But, it is during the desert times, my dark nights of the soul, that I am aware that God has stripped away everything, even my being in Heaven with Him. When I returned to my body after my near death experience, it felt as though God had carried me for quite a while, but after several months, even that, He had taken away. I was completely humbled and laying flat on my face. And yet, even though I had absolutely nothing left and I felt so alone, I still said “yes.” I loved God and even though I still searched and searched for Him, I believed with all my heart, He was still with me. He was there even though; I couldn’t feel Him at all. There were no more words of love, no spiritual gifts, and no more mountain top moments, to carry me through. But I loved Him anyway. I knew in my heart, God would never leave. I clung to the memories and they helped me get through those times. The memories were of how good God had been in my life and in other’s lives. And then I went about my life living my “yes” and trusting God.

Now, it is through others that I will find Him and in truth, God has never left me. I know this and hold on to this. One day another mountain top will come and more dark moments too. They say, it is in the valley that we grow. So, I will continue to walk my path in love with Him, living my “yes” and praising Him.

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind,A Near Death Experience

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After my Near Death Experience, I learned that with God everything is Grace. Our very existence is by His Grace. He is constantly pouring out His love and grace upon us.

There is a saying” There but for the grace of God go any one of us”.

Truly, it is by His grace that we are where we are in life. As I have said before, when I had my life review, I never felt as though I was being judged. God does not judge us, we judge ourselves standing before Him. But, as I watched my life passing before me, I saw everything I ever said or did and there was no sense of remorse of guilt. All I felt was complete love and total acceptance.

There was no sense of being held bound by any past events nor were there any feelings of anger or resentment or any unresolved issues tying me down and keeping me trapped in time. All had been forgiven. I had let go of everything. I learned that forgiveness is the freedom of letting go.

That it was a journey of healing for my body and for my soul. It is a journey because some hurts take a lifetime to forgive and we just can’t do it on our own. We need God to help us. But the WILL to forgive is the first step.

Forgiveness is a process and it takes time, sometimes it takes years, and in some cases a lifetime. I learned that forgiveness is a creative act that takes us from prisoners of the past with hurtful memories, to strong, loving people living in the present who are free of the chains that kept us bound, and are now at peace. There is peace because all of the unresolved issues, and the hurt, and bitterness are gone which brings peace to the soul and harmony to one’s life. Forgiveness doesn’t mean forgetting the wrong that was done to us; it means no longer feeling the pain that was done.

Unforgiveness, is a chain that keeps us held bound. We don’t have to forgive others. It is not a requirement. But if we want to be free and we want to heal from the hurts of life, then it is something that we need. Normally, the other party, or parties involved don’t care if they are forgiven, especially if they haven’t asked for forgiveness, they have gone on with their lives, completely oblivious to the devastation, and the hurt still left in our heart.

That’s why forgiveness is important; it breaks those chains and frees our heart. We need it in order to grow, otherwise we become stuck. When we become stuck we no longer feel God’s grace.

Of course, It is always there, we just don’t feel it anymore. And then we begin feeling the illusion that God has abandoned us. We need to allow forgiveness to flow through us and around us; and when we are aware that we are now free from those chains that held us bound, we are free to love unconditionally and we can send that unconditional love out into the world around us.

Then, the natural flow of God’s divine love dissolves all the hurt, all the bitterness, all the pain and the sense of being wronged. Then, we can allow His grace to come to us and flow through us, to forgive through us.

There is no more of the illusion of separation, no more feelings of abandonment. Forgiveness is the greatest form of unconditional love and acceptance. It is a gift that he gives us and it is through His grace that we experience this gift.

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind
A Near Death Experience

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Jesus Said…

Jesus said
“Listen, quiet your heart and be at peace for I am always with you. If you don’t hear me talking, it’s because you are not listening. You have the courage and the strength to do all that your heart desires and all that My Father has called you to do. It has been shouted from the highest mountains and heard in the lowest valleys. Its whisper has been heard throughout all human experience. So you must trust that it is true.

Trust and believe, with all of your being that LOVE is the answer. It is Agape Love, meaning pure unconditional love that is the answer. Believe in and expect miracles, for they will happen. When you quiet your mind and spirit, answers will come.

My Father knows you. He knows that when you go into nature you will find rest. Nature is where you will become one with all that is, all that was, and all that will ever be. Know that in this place you will find your greatest peace and joy. You will never walk alone. Not ever, all those who went before you, are all around you loving you and supporting you in your walk on this earthly plane.

Open your heart and don’t be afraid. Just cast all your fears aside and accept your new life. Just be at peace. Remember this; I am in you and all around you. Turn wood and you will find me. Lift a stone, I am there. Like the sun warms your skin, I will touch you, and as the rain washes you, I will also. Without you I am nothing. With you, I am eternity.”

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind,
A Near Death Experience


When I was sitting in Heaven with God, I felt a love I had never felt before. It felt as if I was the only one He had ever created. And then I realized that no matter how huge the universe may be and how tiny I am in the grand scheme of things, I am a very important part of everything God created. Meaning, I have eternal worth because I am connected and interwoven with everything like the golden threads of a tapestry. What God taught me was every single thing He created is an extension of His love. God didn’t create us to serve Him. On the contrary, He serves us so that we can learn to serve others in love with Him.

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind
A Near Death Experience

Going Home

Going Home.

When I was younger, I had an almost paralyzing fear of death. My fear came from being so young and not having fully lived my life yet. It also came from not having experienced love in all of its different facets. My fear came from feeling like I had to face the great unknown, alone, at least I thought I was alone. Because I was so young, I hadn’t realized that I was never really alone.

During my NDEs, I was not afraid of dying because everything had happened so fast that I didn’t have time to be afraid. Death came flawlessly as I moved laterally, seamlessly into the Heavens. I found, through my own experience, that Heaven wasn’t a place up in the sky nor was Hell down below the earth. For me, when death came, it was nothing more than walking through a doorway into another room in my home. I also found that Heaven, was no farther away than my own backyard. As I stood in the presence of God, I learned that God is good and He keeps His word. He said He would never leave me or forsake me and just as He had promised, God had never left my side. Not for one single second. He is gracious and His love is abundant beyond words.

I was very young when I had my first near death experience and I had not fully lived my life. I was only 13 years old. I still had many more years ahead of me. It simply wasn’t my time; God still had big plans for my life. So, He sent me back, even though I really wanted to stay. It happened again in my second NDE and in my third one as well. With each NDE, God had brought me closer to himself and He had proven time and time again that there was no need to fear death. There was no pain, no suffering, no judgment, only love. It was the kind of love that there are no words to adequately describe.

Once I knew that there was something far greater than my life here on earth, I was not afraid of death anymore. I had been blessed with a glimpse of what lies beyond with all of its beauty and splendor. But for others, who have not experienced a near death experience ,there is a fear about facing what is unknown. There is a voice inside of each us that says, “ I don’t know what there is that waits for me on the other side. How do I know that there is anything at all? I don’t want to die yet, I’m not finished with my life. I haven’t loved enough yet, which is, of course, what our purpose is in life.

When it is our time to go ” home” and we have fully experienced this life with all of its love, its gifts and its wonder, then, we will be able to say “I’m not afraid to let go and move on because I have lived my journey of life and have loved to the best of my ability.”

Through my experiences, I have learned that there really is no death, for it is only the physical body that dies, the human soul lives on eternally. The human soul, is the part of us that makes us who we truly are and that is the part of us that never dies but upon physical death takes on another form and lives forever in union and in love with God.

Death is the last doorway that takes us to our eternal life and to the glorious gifts that await us for our return home.
Sharon Milliman (c) 2017

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Beauty in front of me, Beauty behind me,
Beauty Above me, Beauty below me,
Beauty all around me,
I walk in Beauty…..
In the house of long life, there I wander.
In the house of happiness, there I wander.
Beauty before me,
Beauty behind me,
Beauty above me ,
Beauty below me,
Beauty all around me,
In old age traveling, with it I wander.
On the beautiful trail I am, with it I wander.
In beauty, it is begun,
In beauty, it is finished.